10 February 2021
Detroit, MI

On Being Valued Without Being Understood: A Choreographed Essay by Maceo Paisley

Performed by Maceo Paisley and prompted by Zion Estrada

Maceo Paisley in motion

Maceo Paisley is a multi-disciplinary artist, designer, and cultural producer who explores themes in society and identity through movement, language, and imagery.

A Video Transcript:

It's interesting to me that we get so infatuated with fantasy and this otherworldly way. Like dragons and monsters and wizards. And for me, my fantasy is, is maybe a little bit more esoteric and a little bit more personal. I don't think of having magical powers or being able to time travel.

I think I really just want to be valued without having to be understood. I want to be appreciated without having to fill a role. And I want to be affirmed in my belonging. The way it feels inside my body by the world. And even as I say it, it sounds ridiculous to ask for, and it sounds like something that will never occur. And so for now, it exists in the realm of fantasy. But, I hope one day that fantasy will become reality. And until then, it's really just about practicing, allowing that space to exist without; within myself, so that it gets to be reverberated in the world.

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I think it means I have to change some things about the way I see reality now. To be valued without having to stay on beat without having to perform. Allowing myself to feel into the reality that I hope to exist one day. It all feels light years away. But every now and then what feels like a miracle. Isn't that fantasy sits…. in me. How the moments right before I get out of bed right after waking, I'm still half dreaming half awake. Feels real. Maybe I can climb through some dimension. And that's where the time travel comes into play. Maybe I'm experiencing an infinity in an instant. That makes me believe that it's entirely possible that the fantasies that we hoped for, or maybe already there, and we just need to practice acknowledging them as a part of a reality we can engage with. And then we don't have to worry about fantasies so much, because we've expanded our definition of what reality is to include imagination and possibility. Not only for the world, but for ourselves. We don't have to do nothing, be nothing, perform nothing. I don't have to do nothing, if it’s enough to perform nothing. Because I'm already everything that I ever could be. There's something peaceful.

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